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[Alex just frowns as she reaches over and touches his forehead, trying to soothe it with her cool hands. But she frowns a bit, thinking about it.]

Okay, so I think you need to stop thinking about Sodder. Maybe it's something involved with the being here or the connection to the world that overwhelms whatever gift you have. Like trying to connect something meant for a double A to a car battery.

[But she does frown:]

That's what you want me to do? Not be reckless? Really? What am I supposed to do here? Everything here is a risk.

Contrary to what people might think, I don't like the idea of children being held against their will and if I could find her...

[Bile rises up at the back of his throat and he slams to his feet and bolts for the bathroom without a second thought. He pukes up the rest of dinner and instantly feels better before he shakes his head, leaning against the wall.]

Seems stupid to have superpowers and not...be able to use them.

[But the moment Alex speaks he glares at her.]

Try to use any instinct of self preservation you have. Please. Blackwood and Sims and the rest of them may...

[His stomach churns. Be morally bankrupt. Be ridiculous. Be absolutely inexplicably...strange]

...have more of an idea in time. About how to go about this.

[Alex follows him to the bathroom, and she frowns before filling him a glass of water. It feels like they're doing this a lot and every connection that they seem to have to that is the mention of Sodder.]

I get that you want to help! [Alex honestly thinks that even when he was being his most skeptical, and his most antagonistic it was because he wanted to help the people that were dealing with the sorts of things that he'd casually admitted that they were real.]

But clearly you can't help her. Not now, not like this. Clearly thinking about it is doing this. Cause and effect, Richard. So your choices are to keep trying and spend all of your time puking your guts out with a pounding headache or worse.

[Alex doesn't want to think about the worst. As a matter of fact, she tries not to think about the worst, which of course means that it's permeating through her brain and their link. She pictures him braindead, or something else as bad as a stroke only magically inclined in nature. This place has magic and they both know it. And it's clear that this aspect of it is bad for him.]

We'll figure it out then. But until then, I'm going to be me, Richard. And if you want me then you get all of me not just the pieces that you like!

[Ridiculous stupid absolutely stubborn woman-

But he's one to talk, getting to his feet like a wobbling colt and glaring down at her.]

I don't want to have to go into the woods to find your body. All I am asking for is caution..

[Despite everything however he chuckles, that same chuckle that's just hers.]

But I just -

Tried to use my so-called powers against your wishes and threw up so I'm one to talk aren't I.

[Fuck it.]

Besides I think if anything happened to you -

[He can't joke about that. His features crack.]

If they appear here. And I see them. I will tell you. You have my word. Even if it...even if it's not worth much. It's just the two of us right?

It’s worth something. I believe you. I believe in you, Richard. I believe you’ll tell me. And I’ll try not to go into anything that’s getting me murdered, alright? At least not knowingly.

[Uknowningly is an entirely different story however. Because it is. It has to be. Alex is Alex is Alex and she’s going to be who she is with or without permission. But she does try to calm him a bit. ]

I’m getting self defense lessons from Huntress. I’m going to be okay. So let’s make a deal. A real one this time. You stop trying to find Sodder, and I’ll be better about danger. Okay?

[He nodded.]

As soon as I know. As soon as I understand what this is. I hope I'll be more than a useless mess. But I won't...

[He nodded] I'll turn my mind from that.

Alex have you ever thought you have some skill like this?

What?

[Alex just blinks at the question. Even with what the two of them were talking about, even knowing what they knew now about her having been able to see Paul, Alex never considered that she might have other things involved with that.]

There’s no way I’m psychic. I mean. If I was it would have come out already. I believed in all of that all along. It’s not as if I’ve been like. Blocking it or something, you know?

[Like Richard himself had been.]

Worth seeing if there's a correlation.

[His laugh is a little sad.]

Every time I thought of using this he'd hurt me Alex. You can't blame me for not being willing to embrace it.

That's natural. Right?

[For a moment Alex just looks entirely stricken and she covers her mouth with her hand. ]

Shit, Richard I’m so sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking. I guess I wasn’t. My brain isn’t fully working right now.

[Nobody is. Nobody does, but the truth is that he has never owned that before.

Staring it in the face he inhales and when he speaks he's not angry. There's just a resolute oh.

His first thought is that he wants to take a walk, to run, but Alex is the only person who has ever been there for him wholly and utterly. He can't run.]

Everyone here demanding my time and energy and asking - ordering, demanding that I believe. That young man Martin and his ...what is Sims to him anyway? Husband?

[The way he reacts it makes sense, but Richard continues] All of the kids.

Took all of that to make me confront the fact that he took that from me.

[His voice trails off before he stares at her looking lost.]

...Just. More to process. Which is fine at least I have time. And it's ...good to acknowledge it because if something happened...

[He brushes it off.]

I just never vocalized it before. We're both learning a lot about ourselves here. Which is good.

[He sighs] And now I really do think. We should sleep. Or at least consider sleep.

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[Alex doesn't think she's ever going to go to sleep again, but she does give him a smile and a little nod, before she just reaches over and wraps her arms around him. It's not anything sexual, it's a hug because she's pretty sure at this point that both of them need one. She knows that she does, and Alex suspects that he does too. It's a hugging sort of thing, really.]

I think they're like us, actually. Back home something, and something else here. When I met Martin he was at the lake, thinking about stealing some water because he's worried about Jon hurting himself somehow. I can relate. And I'm sure you can too. But we have time, and I think things will get easier.

[It's not as if things were going to get any less impossible here, and there's no going back from it while they're still in Deerington. There just isn't. Not for anyone, it's part of something that seems ingrained to the very fabric of the town.]

[He returns the hug like a desperate child before pulling away.]

Just one foot in front of the other.

I can do that.

You can, Richard. I promise you can. And I definitely will help. I’m good at that.

I'm holding you to this too.

[He focuses on her.]

We have to look out for each other.

We do. We will. You've got me, Richard. You always have. Whatever this new thing is, whatever the hell this place is or does?

[Alex just takes his hand and presses it against her heart, her eyes on his and her face entirely serious. It's clear that Alex means this with everything inside of her.]

In here, where it matters the most: you've got me, okay? That's not going to change. If me trying to make it change for a year doesn't do it, then nothing well. I'm kind of a whole force to be reckoned with. [It's softly said, a gentle tease at herself.] And if I can't do it, nothing will.

[I don't deserve you. I don't deserve you. I don't deserve you as a friend, as a colleague, as anything

It's so strange that he thinks of her as a colleague now. As someone just as capable as he is. He holds her close and shakes his head.]

...I'll try and behave myself just for you.

Good.

[ Alex just grins up at him with that, her eyes sparkling. It’s on the tip of her tongue to say something flirty but now is definitely not the time for it. So instead what she says is way more important. Because even if she’s not going to sleep, she knows that Richard needs it. Badly. Probably even more than she does right now.

So, she just gives him a little bit of a tug towards his bedroom. ]

Come on, love. You need to try and get some sleep.

[Being called Love is so nice.

That hasn't happened since Coralee. And she never meant it.

Allowing himself to be led, he leans against her shoulder as they do, snuggling against her.]

Thank you.

Of course. Just try and sleep, love.

[Alex just curls against him, her fingers in his hair as she hums softly. It's a sort of wordless lullaby, but it's pleasant, as she holds him against her.]

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