[it wasn’t pity. Alex didn’t pity him. Instead she felt sad for him and sad for magnus and sad that Dorian didn’t have someone who deserved him in his life. But she’s also quite good at knowing that defensive mechanism after being around Richard so much so she just comes over with the bottle and adds some to his glass without saying anything.
He knew she was sorry. Alex didn’t need to repeat it again.]
[If only Dorian could stomach the idea that he deserved someone at all, to hold him, to tell him everything was going to be alright...maybe he'd listen more, be more open.
Still, after so many years of having no worth other than capability, it was all he could find his value in. His eyes were grateful as she refilled his glass and he breathed a long sigh and lapses into silence for a moment, looking down at the swirling liquid.]
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It should be expected, shouldn't it? We are from various worlds, after all.
[A callous response, perhaps, but it was also a self-defense mechanism.]
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He knew she was sorry. Alex didn’t need to repeat it again.]
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Still, after so many years of having no worth other than capability, it was all he could find his value in. His eyes were grateful as she refilled his glass and he breathed a long sigh and lapses into silence for a moment, looking down at the swirling liquid.]
I'm...so tired, Alex, and I haven't even begun.