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Alex Reagan ([personal profile] 11calls) wrote2020-09-07 03:36 pm
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-03 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
[He sighs quietly into her shoulder, closing his eyes and letting it be. He'd... honestly cried everything out at this point, in the privacy of a rooftop, or of his new apartment, or wherever he could afford to be alone. It's hard enough to cry in front of Athena like he did, or how he'd nearly broken apart in front of May about the internship — which feels so stupid, now, knowing what he knows.]

I don't wanna freak you or anyone else out.

Think I've done that enough to people.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-03 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
[He nods tiredly.]

At first it was, um. It was knowing people I cared about were gonna die at home.

[He steps back, rubbing his arm.]

... Then it was knowing I was.

[It feels a little freeing, to be so open about it. Other than the people from home, he'd only told Athena. And it was... it was really cathartic, to explain, or risk exploding. Imploding, more like. But he can't help but feel like he's being an asshole, to unload on other people. It's not their problem, and there's nothing he can do.

... But... he also knows he wouldn't feel that way if it was someone coming to him.]
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-03 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[He is easy to pull along, and he sits without a smudge of resistance.]

I knew about some of their deaths. I was told about what happened at home, so I — I was aware things were gonna get bad. Real bad. I hadn't... I haven't talked to everyone from home, so I'm not sure who else knows the stuff I do.

[He looks at his feet, fidgeting.]

... Only one person knew I was gonna die.

I figured it out when I saw my ghost haunting him, during one of our missions.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-03 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[He looks up at her, clearing his throat and smiling — sheepishly, miserably.]

Wasn't really the kind of ghost I was hoping for, from our talks.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-04 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
[He leans into the hug, and you know, hugs just make things better. Right? People should really accept them more often, because it means a world of difference. Is it childish, to sag with relief into embraces? How often do heroes avoid letting someone support them like this? Other guys going headlong into adulthood? Part of him wonders if that's what he'll have to start doing, and part of him thinks they're doing it all wrong anyway.

He closes his eyes, feeling smaller than her, despite how he's certainly not kid-sized anymore.

Sometime, sooner or later, he'll grow up, he swears.

... Or he supposes he won't grow up, too literally.]


How do you stop feeling guilty? Sounds fake.

[He laughs, humorlessly.]

This guy, this bad dude... he killed half of the universe. Half of earth's gone now.

Feels unfair, that I'm one of trillions of lives who got another chance.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-04 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
[He nods, and god, it's only the tip of the iceberg. How was he even gonna explain that he was actually Spider-Man and that he'd gone to another planet, had fought the very guy who did it? It sounds insane, honestly. But it's still... something. It's reassurance, that maybe he could live here without feeling that impossible pressure at the base of his neck — tons in weight of guilt.

And it's not all gone, but there's someone else telling him its okay to live as best he could here. A couple tons off him, that. He's still not sure how long he'll stay, but... he can at least feel like he's been given this for some reason. Maybe to protect some people in Riverview. Maybe to just enjoy some of whatever he's got left. Who knows.

When he leans back, his eyes are wet, and he wipes the evidence away quickly.]


I have a to-do list for Riverview. Uh. Really stupid stuff, but things people try to do before they die, you know? I figure I'd try to get as much done as I can while I figure things out.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-04 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[He sniffs and pulls off his backpack, unzipping it and rustling through until he finds one of those general spiral notebooks; it looks plenty worn, but any pages from before have been torn out, leaving only a handful of loose survivors. Handing it over, the first page reveals a work-in-progress bucket list.]

I... think it's mostly done. I dunno.

I'm not very good at thinking up things to add lately.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-05 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
Well...

[He rubs the back of his neck, legs crossing. He has to fight the urge to blush at that compliment. She thinks Spider-Man's cool...? Man.]

Spider-Man's a cool dude. I think superheroes in general are amazing, but he doesn't have any merch like Iron Man or Captain America, s-so...

[Ah—]

And — I'm not sick, I promise. That would be just bad news on top of more bad news, right? It's... I dunno how it works. Same with organ donors here... If I need permission from a guardian, or if anything I've had before would stop me from giving any...

I heard this one girl, Cindy, she had mono once, so they didn't let her do the blood drive.

... I think in was mono, anyway...
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-07 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh my god. If there's any way to make this miserable conversation goofy—

He covers his face with his hands.]


R-right. I've always just avoided it since it's illegal in New York, you know? And I don't have any medical issues, and I don't wanna lose any scholarships, and — like, pretty sure May would kill me. [Or not. He's kind of split 50-50 on whether May would kill him or tell him to smoke with her next time. May had always been kind of wild in her youth, so he's not even remotely surprised if she liked pot. B-but.] But since home ends up sucking so bad...

[Why not live a little.]
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-09 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
[He brightens immediately at that.]

I'd love to have a game night. Me and my aunt, we always had at least one every other weekend — nothing too fancy, but you know, we'd really get into it. [After a moment, he breathes out, relieved that the heavy feeling in his shoulders have abated. It hurts to think about home when he knows home is... screwed up later, but it's always good to think of May. Always.] I'd just like that a lot.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-11 09:44 am (UTC)(link)
[He rubs his face at the mention of karaoke. Even the thought of doing that in front of other people is enough to make him wanna turn into a turtle and hide in a shell. Forever. But hey, game night! That'll be fun, right? He can work his way up to confidence in singing just to be stupid and have fun.

He laughs a little, though.]


My friends here are kinda rowdy.

[His smile softens into something sadder, because certain friends aren't doing so well.

Certain friends who also had to learn about their deaths — but firsthand.

He shakes his head, though, trying to jar those thoughts loose and away.]


M—maybe I can do a game night at the school! Like how I did bad movie night?
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-12 09:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He nods quickly against her shoulder.]

If you're sure... If you need any help though, I should probably return the favor.

I mean, you've been doing me a favor, listening to all this. Is all.
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[personal profile] madeupnames 2018-09-14 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
[God, hair ruffling. His weakness. And it completely disarms him for the question, too.

He glances away guiltily and knows there's really no room for lying at this rate.]


... It's been a while. I haven't really had much of an appetite.

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