At first it was, um. It was knowing people I cared about were gonna die at home.
[He steps back, rubbing his arm.]
... Then it was knowing I was.
[It feels a little freeing, to be so open about it. Other than the people from home, he'd only told Athena. And it was... it was really cathartic, to explain, or risk exploding. Imploding, more like. But he can't help but feel like he's being an asshole, to unload on other people. It's not their problem, and there's nothing he can do.
... But... he also knows he wouldn't feel that way if it was someone coming to him.]
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At first it was, um. It was knowing people I cared about were gonna die at home.
[He steps back, rubbing his arm.]
... Then it was knowing I was.
[It feels a little freeing, to be so open about it. Other than the people from home, he'd only told Athena. And it was... it was really cathartic, to explain, or risk exploding. Imploding, more like. But he can't help but feel like he's being an asshole, to unload on other people. It's not their problem, and there's nothing he can do.
... But... he also knows he wouldn't feel that way if it was someone coming to him.]